Wednesday, June 17, 2009


I have always had weight problems or perhaps that’s not really accurate, but I don’t think I have ever been skinny. Well, not until I was about 8 lol. I spent most of my undergrad years drinking, eating crap and getting no exercise.

It did not seem to affect me that much, until I got in my early twenties and all of a sudden everything I consumed seemed to stay on my body. It did not help matters much that as a grad student I started to spend most of my days behind a computer.

Very gradually I started to put on a lot of weight. And to be honest I did not even notice. I mean, I knew I was a little on the heavy side, but I did not realize how bad it had gotten until about 5 years ago I stood on a scale for the first time in years and noticed I weighed 200 pounds.

I was very shocked by this and also very upset. It was quite the confrontation with myself and I decided to change the way I lived my life and try to lose some weight. And I have to say, I was very successful.

I never did get very sportive, but I did totally change my eating habits. I won’t bore you with the details, but I basically started eating less and way more healthy. In 18 months I managed to lose about 50 pounds.

Not only that, but I also was able to keep the weight of for a few years. That was until I quit smoking. It was one of the hardest things I have ever done and I could not abstain from nicotine and not allow myself any nice food or booze either.

It made me put on a lot of weight again. Then moving back to the Netherlands and being unemployed for a while also did not really help matters. Slowly I started gaining back the weight I had lost before.

Luckily I did not let it get out of hand this time. But I had been carrying around the extra weight for a little too long. Simply watching what I was eating wasn’t doing the trick anymore.

So after tons of talking about dieting, five weeks ago my mother and I made de decision to really have a go at it again. Yes, with an official diet with specific meals and ingredients that need weighing etc.

I have been eating nothing but little healthy meals for weeks now and I feel great. Not only that, but it’s also really working and I am starting to lose weight. Despite a few nice long weekends away and still being allowed to drink alcohol (I need some rewarding lol), it’s going very well.

I hope to stick with it for a long time to come. What I am looking forward to most is being able to fit into all my old clothes again, especially all my cool pants that have been waiting for me in my closet for a long time now...


Spoil Myself said...

thanks for sharing, this is definitely not an easy topic to write about.
I can tell you being in a relationship with someone who "loves" eating, is not really good for your weight. Adding no more walks because you need to take the car, hardly any walking at the office cause you moved up the ladder and became a chair-warmer and that topped by a broken tail-bone that took 6 months to heal - need I say more?
"we" will be entering a program which includes a nutrition plan and exercising - nordic walking (which is really fun)

Natazzz said...

If it's not easy, it's usually worth sharing more...

I'm now on an "official" diet too. And try to walk an hour every day...walking IS fun, not sure about the Nordic part though ;-)

Good luck :-)

unfolder said...

I just want to say good luck and I hope you'll enjoy the ride :)