Saturday, January 31, 2009

I wasn’t always like this

I wasn’t always the way I am today….outgoing, extraverted, out and proud, confident, self-assured, knowing who I am and what I want and don’t want….happy.

For a long time I was just like so many other young insecure, self-conscious, overly self-critical (or even self-loathing) girls. When I was 14 I was not only shy, introverted and scared of the world, but I was also convinced I was fat and ugly and that no one would ever love me.

I would just sit in my room alone and cry. I would cry because the world was such a horrible place, because I wasn’t cool, popular, or thin and I did not have a boyfriend. I didn’t know yet then that I wasn’t fat at all and that finding a boyfriend really wasn’t the solution.

In those days I kept a diary in which I filled pages and pages with self-created drama. I have never felt so bad and so low about such small things. But when you are a teenager, your world is very small and the slightest problem becomes the end of the world.

I wanted to be normal and just like everybody else. Like the pretty popular girls with their perfect bodies and groups of friends and awesome boyfriends. I was constantly on a diet and tried to starve myself, but luckily I’ve always loved food way too much to do any real damage.

Even though it seems so ridiculous now, I can still remember what I felt like when I used to stand in front of the mirror naked and cry because of my fat ass. Who cries because of their ass? Seriously?

Just as I got over the fact that I should be cute and skinny like all the other girls, I discovered that I was gay and that created a whole new set of problems. If I tell you that it took me until I was 23 until I finally came out completely, it should say something about the struggle that it was.

From all the teenage angst I experienced, I think the feeling of being alone was the worst. I felt so alone in the world, I honestly though I was the only one feeling what I was feeling and experiencing what I was experiencing.

I so desperately wanted to have someone to confide in, to share my feelings with. Some friends I could really be myself with and who would understand me. I wanted to find a place where I belonged.

It never got so bad that I wanted to kill myself, but I understood others who did a little too well. These days I hardly ever think about those times, but this short I watched on After Ellen brought it all back.

If you are reading this and you haven’t put your “self-created drama” years behind you yet, I want you to know that things will get better. Some day soon you will look back on your younger self and shake your head, wondering what ever made you feel that way.

There’s this awesome world out there with lots of room for freaks and geeks like you and me. You just have to find it….find your place in the world where you can be yourself.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Don’t see it: Producing Adults

“Producing Adults (“Lapsia ja aikuisia”) is the 2004 Finnish movie about a woman named Venla (Minna Haapkylä) who desperately wants to have a baby. Her boyfriend of fifteen years, however, is more interested in his speed skating career than in settling down.

While Venla goes through more and more extreme measures in order to become pregnant, her boyfriend is trying everything he can to avoid getting her pregnant and that is putting it mildly.

Venla decides to secretly seek help from a bisexual co-worker named Satu (Minttu Mustakallio) at the fertility clinic that she works at and against all odds, the two women end up falling for each other.

Does this sound like a believable plot to you? I certainly was sceptical before I started watching this movie. I am blessed with more than a healthy aversion against anything to do with pregnancies and babies, especially when it comes to movies about queer women (or straight women who out of the blue realize they want a woman).

However, seeing as this movie has won several awards, including the 2004 Stockholm film festival award as well as the 2004 Verzaubert international gay & lesbian film festival award, I decided to give Producing Adults the benefit of the doubt.

This wasn’t very easy as the movie starts with a woman who wants to hug sperm, which is actually as ridiculous as it sounds. This is followed by a scene in which we see both sperm and naked man ass.”

Read the entire review here.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Songs I loved as a little girl

Ok here are some songs I loved when I was younger. This is not embarrassing at all…

My sister and I both loved this song. Don’t ask me why. It certainly isn’t appropriate music for little girls, but we didn’t know what the guy was singing.
Falco-Jeanny (1985)

I was a huge Madonna fan when I was little. I thought she looked awesome in this video. Actually, I still kinda do.
Madonna-Papa don’t preach (1986)

I got the 7”single of this song for my 11th birthday…C’mon admit it, you used to love this song too.
LL Cool J-I need love (1987)

The next year I discovered boy bands…
Bros-I owe you nothing (1988)

New Kids On The Block-You got it (The Right stuff) (1989)

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

What if the whole world was gay?

Ever wondered what life would be like if the whole world was gay? There's an awesome new comic strip by Embla who covers this exact topic.

Check out eurOut for upcoming comic strips.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Things that annoyed me about Episode 6.02 of the L word

Episode 2 of the final season of the L word taught me a lot of things about myself, mainly about all the things that annoy me. Why can’t the L word just be fun?

Things that annoyed me about this episode:
1. Jenny. I already could not stand her, but to have the entire episode be about her and her interactions with everyone is very tiring. C’mon, does the entire L word world have to revolve around her?

2. The two different tables at the planet. It was retarded the way they chose sides and refused to sit with one another. I especially found it hard to believe anyone would choose Jenny’s side. Didn’t everyone hate her?

3. Max is pregnant. WTF! Who comes up with these story lines?

4. Saved by the bell chick. The woman can’t act. I’ve hated her in everything she’s been in. What’s she doing on the L word?
5. Jenny and Shane making out. Seriously? WTF! I don’t even know where to start to describe all the things that are wrong with this.

What I did love about this episode was, once again, Tasha and Alice. They have sex in the car and then they make lists. What’s not to love about these two?

Monday, January 26, 2009

What’s wrong with being single?

I have been single for a while now (read a looooooooong time). Most of the time I am fine with that. I like being on my own, living alone, and not having the hassle and drama that relationships bring. It probably also helps that I enjoy being by myself and really love my own company.

Seriously, I love weekends like the one I just had where I don’t really hangout or even talk to anyone, but just chill by myself. I sleep in late, go shopping, read, play online, make a nice dinner and watch some movies.

Don’t get me wrong, I also love to hangout with friends, go to pubs, interact and of course date. I love being in a relationship and being in love and all that good stuff, but I don’t need to be in a relationship to be happy.

What brought all this on? Well, I watched this Cherry Bomb vlog on After Ellen over the weekend that was all about serial monogamy. I don’t watch this vlog too often as I feel I really have very little in common with these ladies. At least, we never seem to agree on anything.

They were all saying that it is perfectly fine and normal to jump from one relationship to the next. Most of them were never single for long and some of them even liked to do this thing they called overlapping.

If you ask me, overlapping is really another word for cheating. Ok maybe not, but I honestly don’t understand women who cannot be alone and jump from one relationship to the next. Not only that, but how tacky is it to stay in a relationship until someone better comes along?

If you are not happy with your girlfriend anymore, just break up. Don’t wait until you can trade her in. There is nothing wrong with being on your own for a while. They kept saying but when you are single it is so boring having to do stuff on your own.

Don’t these women have friends to hang out with? I can think of a lot of reasons why I would want to be in a relationship with someone, but it certainly isn’t because being together is less boring than being alone.

The other thing that bothers me about this, is that if you go from one relationship to the next you don’t really take any time to get over the woman you just left. I would hate to get involved with someone who just broke up with their long term girlfriend the week before.

Is it just me or is there something seriously messed up with this whole serial monogamy thing?

Saturday, January 24, 2009

Because you’re hot: Rose Rollins

Watching the L word again made me remember just how much I love Rose Rollins. What I really mean to say is that I love the L word’s Tasha. That woman is unbelievably hot! At least, that is how I feel.

If you are not feeling it yet, let me try to convince you. The first piece of evidence why Tasha Williams is freaking hot:

That’s what a real woman should look like. A real hot tank top wearing woman. Or vest wearing woman, I am not picky, as long as it shows off some wonderfully hot arms.

Forget Shane, forget Beth, I am all about Tasha. Well, Tasha and Alice. I find them both very attractive, so the two of them together is super duper hot!

I know they might have absolutely nothing in common, but I want them to stay together just because I like to look at them. Yeah, I know, how shallow. But look at the title of this post…it’s a shallow post.

Nothing but hot pictures and a few words as to why they are hot…as if you guys don’t have eyes!
Have a nice weekend!

Friday, January 23, 2009

You should read it: Panna Nikt (“Miss Nobody”) by Tomek Tryzna

“During the years that I used to roam our local library for any book that was even remotely gay, I stumbled upon “Panna Nikt” (Miss Nobody) by Tomek Tryzna (1994).

Panna Nikt is a Polish coming of age novel about a fifteen-year-old girl named Marysia who moves from the Polish countryside to the big city where she befriends Kasia and Ewa.

Marysia is very sweet and naive and both girls take advantage of this fact, playing weird (mind) games with her, toying with her emotions and basically being very intense and cruel like only teenage girls can be.

Marysia first befriends Kasia who is obsessed with art and being creative. Kasia shows her a world of music and art and all it involves, which is such a stark contrast to the life she has lived before which only revolved around family and religion.

They start playing weird kind of games, or more precisely Kasia totally plays Marysia, to the point where Marysia has had enough and ends their friendship. Instead she starts hanging out with Ewa, who just happens to be the person that Kasia likes least.”

Read the entire review here.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Awesome upcoming movie trailers

Here are the trailers of some of the movies I am excited about seeing in the next couple of weeks and months.

I hope some of you agree about their awesomeness (if not, then your taste sucks!).


Bitch slap

Lesbian Vampire Killers

X-men originals: Wolverine

The Unborn

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Noisy old houses

Even though I have been living at my awesome new apartment for two months now, there are a few things I just can’t seem to get used to. One of those things is the noisiness of the place. I am used to living in either fairly new apartments or old bunkers.

Of course, wherever you live you always hear some of the noise from your neighbours (like my upstairs neighbour when I lived in Germany, who loved to have really loud sex with all the windows open. Actually she was so loud for such a long time, I am pretty sure she was faking it), but in old houses with wooden floors things are so much worse.

It does not even bother me so much that I can hear my neighbours’ music or whether or not they have visitors, or an argument or a cold. What does bother me is when we are using the bathroom at the same time and I can hear exactly what they are doing.

For example, I am pretty sure that my downstairs neighbour either has a constant flu or an eating disorder. Now I know she cannot help our building is noisy, but does she have to barf exactly when I use the toilet?

It also does not help that she has a little kid that is always screaming or crying. Even very late at night. It is almost as annoying as the constant barking of the upstairs neighbours’ dog. Don’t you just love old houses?

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

What I learned from Episode 6.01 of the L word

Have you ever noticed how the L word isn’t just a fun lesbian soft porn soap opera, but that it’s also filled with fun and educational life lessons? You haven’t? Well, then you must not have been paying attention.

The first episode of the final season of the L word was filled with lots of handy advice on what not to do.

Lesson number 1: Don’t be a total selfish crazy-ass bitch, because you might end up floating in the swimming pool.
Lesson number 2: Don’t F your best friend’s girlfriend and then try to justify it by saying you didn’t F her, you only ate her out.
Lesson number 3: Don’t ever think you deserve some credit for not cheating on your girlfriend.
P.S. They might have nothing in common, but I think they’re Fing hot together.

Monday, January 19, 2009

Battlestar Galactica versus the L word

This week two of my favourite shows have started airing again. Yes, I am talking about Battlestar Galactica and the L word. I love both these shows for very different reasons. Even though they have a lot in common, they are also quite different shows.

Let’s talk about the similarities first. Both BSG and the L word are currently in their final seasons (Sad face!). It will only be a few more episodes and these shows will be no more. Of course, they will stay in our hearts forever and of course they will be available still be available on DVD.

Awesome final season of Battlestar Galactica

That’s the second similarity…I own all aired seasons of these series on DVD. I have watched each episode multiple times and still enjoy them. Both series makes me happy and they make me smile. Both series also make me shout at the screen!

The L word and Battlestar Galactica are both filled with hot women. I could list all their names, but you know exactly who I am talking about. If it ever came down to it, it would be a hard choice between Alice and Starbuck.

(Who am I kidding…I would easily give up my happy life with adorkable Alice as my baby mama for one night of hot passionate sex with emotionally unavailable Starbuck)

the L word's final weirder than weird season

Even though there are many more similarities between the L word and Battlestar Galactica, there is also one very big difference: The L word is a show about lesbians, whereas Battlestar Galactica might not have (m)any lesbians, but it is a really good show.

Are you enjoying watching either, neither or both?

Friday, January 16, 2009

Just an average morning in the life of a clumsy dumb ass

I went swimming this morning. Just an ordinary every day event that lots of people do all the time without anything ever happening to them. Not me. I am the kind of person who cannot do anything without either doing something stupid or clumsy. Usually both.

I got my bike out of the shed without any incidents (this IS a big deal, because on two previous occasions I managed to give myself a flat tire and break off my key in the lock) and I was all ready to go to the swimming pool.

Once I arrived there, I managed to do almost everything I could possibly do to make everyone thing I was a complete moron. It started with putting my bike in the bike rack. Apparently, you are supposed to wait until the guy in the booth gives you a little card and attaches one to your bike.

You are also not supposed to leave without handing back the little card and having the guy remove the tag from your bike. Well, how was I supposed to know that? The guy wasn’t amused with my misunderstanding.

Luckily, the people inside the swimming pool were more understanding. At this point I might tell you that the actual swimming part went just fine. I did not drown or hurt myself in any other way.

Just everything around it I had problems with. Like figuring out how to make the entrance gate open. Then I failed to walk through the entrance gate fast enough before it closed again.

But the real stupid stuff happened as soon as I got changed. I got all my clothes, bag, and everything and stuffed it inside of a locker. Just as I slammed the locker shut, I see this HUGE SIGN that reads, “Never just randomly shut a locker”.

Who knew you needed an electronic code? So I go swimming and afterwards I go look for someone who can open my locker. Finally I find a guy who can help me with getting my locker to open again. He was nice enough, I guess he has to deal with dumb asses like me all the time.

I am in the dressing room getting changed and when I am almost done, I realize that I only have one shoe with me. Where did the other one go? I could not have possibly have left it…in my locker?

At this point I am just slightly embarrassed, as I go look for someone to ask if perhaps they have found a shoe. Just as I am describing my shoe (because of course I left the other one unattended in de dressing room), the guy who helped me with my locker comes walking towards us with my shoe in his hand.

A crazy morning? Nah, this is a pretty typical morning in the life of me…

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Youtube Thursday: Lesbian Comics part 2

Almost 6 months ago, I shared with you my very first YouTube Thursday devoted to some lesbian comics I love. Well, the sequel is long overdue. So many lovely funny ladies to choose from…

…ok, here goes:

Sandra Valls

Jenny McNulty

Erin Foley

Wanda Sykes

and as an extra bonus, the Offensive women trailer:

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Did you know you could learn how to be a clown?

As I have mentioned previously, I have a weird obsession with clowns. Obsession is perhaps not quite the right word, even though I do think and talk about clowns a lot. Mainly about the fact that I think they are EVIL.

Yes, evil. I don’t think there is anything particularly funny about clowns. They are so damn creepy. The only thing that bothers (and fascinates) me more is people who decide to become clowns.

Who in their right mind would freely choose to dress up and act like a clown?
Well, apparently there are a lot of people who feel inclined to do just that. When I went to the centre where I had my first ever Yoga class (damn, that is a lot harder than I thought it would be, but more about that at another time) I found out about some unusual classes they were also teaching.

I kid you not, but they had 3 different classes that teach you how to become a clown. They even had a fancy name for it like “clownery” or something. How weird is that? I was really disturbed it.

And also kind of intrigued. Are there that many people hoping to learn how to be a clown, and a good one at that? WHY? It’s just too mindboggling…

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

You should see it: Itty Bitty Titty Committee

I finally got around to watching what can only be described as one of the most fun lesbian movie I have seen in the last couple of years. That is saying something, because I have seen plenty of queer movies. Some were good and some were really really bad.

Itty Bitty Titty Committee is everything that I hoped it would be. It has a great plot, likeable characters, great acting, a fun soundtrack and it stars pretty much every actor that I love (Carly Pope! Clea Duvall! Melanie Lynskey!).

It tells the story of Anna a young, shy girl who doesn’t really know what kind of excitement life has to offer. She comes into contact with a group of radical feminist women who run a little guerrilla group called Clits in Action (CIA).

They try to show everything that is wrong (read women unfriendly) with the world by sneaking around at night and defacing public and private property with spray painted messages against the established.

Anna is very much drawn to this new and exciting world of political activism and especially the kind of women that are involved in it. It really changes her life in the way that you can only be changed when you are still young.

Even though the topic of the movie is rather serious and perhaps the message a little heavy handed, I thought IBTC was a fun watch. It is a great portrayal of what it must be like to be part of a movement like this.

A large part of the movie is just about the main characters, we get to see what they are like and how their relationships are with one another. Plus IBTC has some really funny moments, a few pretty hot make out scenes, as well as a killer soundtrack. What’s not to like?

So many great women were involved in this movie, including Jamie Babbitt, Carly Pope, Clea Duvall, Melanie Lynskey, Guinevere Turner, Stacy Codikow, Melonie Diaz, and Jenny Shimuzi (look here for a complete list). In fact, IBTC is one of the few movies that is almost entirely made by women.

Go rent or buy Itty Bitty Titty Committee today! This is a gay DVD you don’t have to be ashamed of having in your DVD collection.

Monday, January 12, 2009

I feel like such a dyke…a proud dyke!

No, this is not a post about being proud to be gay or even about being gay at all. It is about this myth that I had believed in for 32 years that I found out over the weekend is completely false.

I am a very clumsy person who also lived in student housing for way too many years. So during most of my life I didn’t really have a proper apartment of my own and no need to do much in the way of fixing stuff or putting stuff together.

Even when I did move into a real apartment a few years back, I had my mom’s handy boyfriend to help me out. Same thing with my most recent move. Every single guy I know who is handy has been over to my apartment to help me with stuff.

I really appreciate all their help, but since I moved pretty far away from everyone else I can’t keep calling them for every little thing. At least, that is what I thought when my lovely new furniture was delivered this week.

I bought both a dining table and a saloon table that came in 20 thousand separate pieces (ok I’m slightly exaggerating) with hardly any instructions on how to put it together. I guess that’s normal but I used to be an IKEA girl, so what do I know.

I went out and bought myself a drill and all other equipment one could possibly need to put these tables together. I drilled 164 holes and screwed 164 screws and in 3,5 hours I had perfectly put together tables.

Not only was it relatively easy to do, it was also fun. Drilling holes is a lot of fun! Who knew?

The myth I held onto for so long was that doing stuff like this was difficult and better left to handy man friends. I even thought they possessed some kind of gift that they could do all this stuff.

This weekend I found out I have been stroking their egos telling them they are so great at all this handy stuff for no reason. It is not a gift at all. Even someone as clumsy and unhandy as me can put tables together!

Ok so maybe it is really not that easy and I am actually quite great lol. In either case, I feel damn proud of myself! Soon enough there won’t be anything left I won’t do myself…

Friday, January 9, 2009

Are you coming out this year?

In case you have missed it, this week is coming out week over at eurOut. All week I have been listening to and reading about everyone’s coming out stories and it has put a huge smile on my face.

Every one’s coming out story is different, yet the process we go through is always the same. Most of us take a while (read years) to come to terms with our feelings and to muster up the courage to declare to the world that we are gay.

We are always worried and we are always scared it will have a lot of negative consequences. Unfortunately, for some of us coming out does result in a lot of crap happening. However, for most of us things get really good again in the long run.

Regardless of how positive or negative ones coming out is, it is always accompanied by a huge sense of relief. The relief to no longer having to hide and keep all those feelings locked up inside.

Over the years I have heard many people tell me their coming out stories. Even though some people have had horrible experiences, there is not a single person I know who regrets coming out.

Sometimes there is a price we have to pay to be able to be ourselves, but ask yourself: what is the alternative?

If you are reading this and you are still in the closet, perhaps 2009 is the year you follow all those queers who have gone before you and come out to the world. What are you waiting for? There is a whole gay world for you to discover and trust me, you are going to like it!

Thursday, January 8, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Songs I love right now

Here’s a selection of some of the songs that I have been playing on a loop on my laptop lately. These are not my ultimate favourite songs, just some songs I love right now.

Melissa Ferrick-Glycerine

the Murmurs-Carry me home

Damien Rice-Nine Crimes

the Cure-Trust

Uh Huh Her-Explode

Smashing Pumpkins-Crestfallen

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Fun quizzes for some procrastination

The good thing about being back at work is being able to procrastinate. I was almost running out of ways to waste time, when I saw some fun quizzes over at Random But Gay (Thanks!).

So here is what I learned about myself…

Which Buffy the Vampire Slayer Character Are You?

Obviously, this result is utter BS. I am nothing like that!
Best question: How many times have you died?

Which Top Chef Are You?

Hmmm. Am I?

Which ER Character Are You?

This quiz might be right…interesting.

And finally…because I really did not want to go back to work yet:

Which Jonas Brother is Your Boyfriend?

Ehm. Just who the hell are the Jonas Brothers? Thank God I’m gay.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

You should read it: Passing for black by Linda Villarosa

There were a few noteworthy queer novels published in 2008, one of those was Passing for Black by Linda Villarosa (it won best novel in After Ellen’s visibility awards). I read it a few weeks ago over the weekend.

In fact, I think it only took me 4 or 5 hours to read the entire novel. Once I started reading, I could not put it down. The short verdict: I loved it and I definitely think it is the best queer novel of 2008. Now for the longer review:

Passing for black tells the story of Angela Wright, an African American woman in her late twenties who to the outside world has a great life. She has a good job at Desire magazine and a handsome and decent fiancé named Keith.

Keith just happens to be a successful professor of African-American history. All her friends and family think she is a lucky woman and they do not miss an opportunity to tell her so. The only problem is that she isn’t feeling it.

All of her life Angela has done everything that was expected from her and she has tried desperately to fit in, to pass in each and every way. Time and again she has ignored her own thoughts and feelings, in order to be the person she thinks she ought to be, instead of who she really is.
It has sort of worked for her to live her life this way, until she has a chance encounter with Cait. Cait is a sexy androgynous looking woman who teaches gay & lesbian studies at the university that Keith also works at.

She is drawn to Cait in a way that she has never been attracted to someone before. All the feelings she is experiencing are so intense and overwhelming that she does not quite know what to do with herself.

Over the years, Angela has had many crushes on women that she was always able to ignore, only this time the feelings are too strong to just push away. But what is the alternative to denying your true self and hoping it all goes away? And how will pursuing her feelings affect the nice and comfortable life she has built for herself?

Passing for black deals with a lot of different issues, including things like race, sexuality and identity. However, it is really about the journey of finding your true self and standing up for who you are.

Regardless of what that might be or regardless of the consequences. Not everything in this novel I could relate to to the same extend, but that really did not matter, because those parts that I did relate to really hit home.

Even though I never let it get that far like Angela did with getting engaged and everything, I did spend too many years denying my true feelings for women and trying to fit in in the straight world.

Villarosa describes so well what it is like to desperately want to be like everybody else, when deep down you have known all along you aren’t really fooling anybody. Or maybe you are fooling others, but you certainly aren’t convincing yourself.

It takes courage to be yourself, but luckily most of us find this courage eventually.

If you haven’t read Passing for black yet, do yourself a favour and order your copy today. I promise you won’t regret it!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Naked neighbour part 2

Remember how I told you all about my naked neighbour who’s tinted bathroom windows don’t really tint? Well, since I blogged about it I had been thinking about what to do about it and asking some more people for advice.

Even though some of you suggested I should leave a note, most of my friends seemed to think I should just leave it alone. They either didn’t see the problem, did not think she had a problem with it or they did not want for it to become a problem.

I had not seen my neighbour naked in a while, because I am a lazy ass and did not happen to get up as early as she does. Then all of a sudden the other day I noticed that she has moved out and I now have a couple of new neighbours.

It looks like some students moved in and they aren’t too bothered about the badly tinted window either (or perhaps they also do not realize it is see through when it is dark outside).

So instead of looking at a beautiful naked woman, I am now looking at naked frat boys.

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Blog crush: Ask Nicola

I realised I haven’t done any Blog crushes in a while and because I don’t want you guys to think I have stopped enjoying other people’s blogs, I thought it was about time for another one.

This time my blog crush is Ask Nicola, the blog by out author Nicola Griffith. I only recently discovered it, but I am already hooked. Not only because she is an awesome author and I love all her books, but because her blog is just really fun to read.

In her blog she talks about writing (duh!), art, statistics and other geeky stuff, interesting news or stuff she’s Googled or found on YouTube.

She also finds the time to just blog about her personal life, as well as topics like politics. And now I have only mentioned stuff she wrote in December.

So yeah, it’s a very active blog, with stuff for just about anyone to enjoy. Check it out, I know you are going to like it.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Because you’re hot: Carly Pope

My first hottie of 2009 is Carly Pope. I have had a crush on Carly ever since I first saw her on the awesome teen drama series Popular. I her character Sam was the coolest and the cutest chick I’d ever seen.

Over the years I have enjoyed seeing her in different series and movies. Not only do I think she is really hot, she is also a really great actor. That’s a nice little bonus as just hot tends to get a little boring.

What made me think of her is that I am waiting to get my copy of Itty Bitty Titty Committee in the mail. Ok I am not literally waiting, but I am very much looking forward to watching that movie, because what I’ve seen from it is looks pretty awesome.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

New Year’s resolutions

Happy New Year every one! A new year, a new chance to start fresh. This is the time when many people try to stick to all their New Year’s resolutions. They are usually not very successful. There are exceptions though.

Exactly two years ago, today I decided to quit smoking. I had been a heavy chain smoker for about 15 years and basically my whole life revolved around smoking. I quit cold turkey and I haven’t had a cigarette since.

It is one of the hardest things I have ever done, but I am so happy that I did. I think that was the only time I ever made a New Year’s resolution and actually followed through. And it will remain the only one for a while, I think.

No New Year’s resolutions for me this year. Sure, there are plenty of things I want to do and accomplish, but I am not going to list them today and hope they will happen. If there is one thing I have learned it is that usually life just happens while you are busy making other plans (thanks John).

This time last year I was about to leave Germany to start a life of homelessness and unemployment. I did not have a clue what was going to happen…I did spend a lot of time planning what I wanted to happen, but life took some unexpected turns.

Now I find myself a year later with an awesome new job and an awesome new apartment. I now live in a city I never thought I’d move to, enjoying aspects of my new job I always thought I’d hate. Life is weird like that sometimes.

So no resolutions for me this year. I’m just going to live my life and enjoy it! How about you?