Thursday, October 29, 2009

Friday, October 23, 2009

Because you're hot: Sports ladies

I might not care at all about most sports, let alone about watching them, but what I do like is to watch women athletes, whether they play soccer, tennis or are swimmers.

Here are some lovely ladies I’d almost watch sports for. Almost.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Favorite movies to watch over and over again

These are some of the movies I can and have watched over and over again. The fact that I like them so much doesn’t always correspond with how good they are. They are not even my all time favourites, but I have watched all of these more than 10 times.

Gone in 60 seconds

Guys stealing cars…Yeah, I know. But it used to be my favourite hang over movie. It doesn’t require much brain activity to follow this movie.

Coyote Ugly

Cute girls dancing half naked on the bar. See description of the previous movie

Better than chocolate

Because for a while it was the only lesbian movie I owned


Because it’s cute and sweet and so so sad. (Btw this must be the worst trailer ever. So funny)

St. Elmo’s Fire

The best movie ever about how “hard” it is to become a grown up

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

I miss my blog

As I mentioned in a previous post, I haven’t been such a good blogger lately. What used to be a daily event has turned into a weekly one at best. I didn’t mind for a while, but lately I’ve started to really miss my blog.

I miss my blog and I miss writing. I used to write all the time, but these days all I seem to write is work stuff or email. I mean, Tweets don’t count as writing, right?

Not sure what’s up. My writing flow or even my motivation has been very low for some weeks. I don’t even have a good excuse. Sure, I have been rather busy with life and work, not to mention being in love *grin* but that by itself isn’t really an excuse enough to be such a slacker.

Therefore, I’ve decided, flow or no flow, that from now on I’m going to start writing again. Regardless of motivation or inspiration, I am just going to write. Every day. Every single day I am going to write a blog post or an article.

Hmmm. I know, I know. Now that I put it in writing it means I might actually have to live up to those words and start being productive again. Do you think I can do it? To be honest, I am not really sure. But the only way to find out is to just give it a try.

I’ll start updating this blog again regularly, and who knows, perhaps my writing flow will come back to me. And if not? Then we might have to take extreme measures, and give my blog a funeral.

Don’t worry, I am sure it won’t get that far.

Glad to have me back?

Thursday, October 8, 2009

YouTube Thursday: TV Shows I'm watching right now

I thought I’d share with you some of the awesome TV series I’ve been watching recently, just to, you know, convince you or their awesomeness so that you will watch them too.


I love this show. It’s the perfect mix between the X-files and any good CSI like crime show. Great story, there’s mystery, wonderful characters and a hottie detective.


It’s like X-men, only different. Very different. But there’s still lots of folks with special powers like being able to fly or heal or stop time. And they try to stop the world from ending. It’s fun, it’s intriguing.


Just so much fun to watch! Yes, I know it looks very silly, but trust me, it’s great. And SO gay.

La Femme Nikita

I loved this show when it was on in the early 90s and I still love it now. It’s like Alias, only better and instead of CIA agents they are assassins.


Some watch it for the blonde hottie, but I watch it for Chuck. I love that guy. He’s such a geek, but in a nice way.

Friday, October 2, 2009

Busy falling in love

I used to be such a good little blogger, making sure there was at least one new blog post a day. I did really well for a long time, I often even planned ahead. Yep, I was quite dedicated and it didn’t even feel like much work at all.

I guess most of you must’ve noticed I haven’t been that good with updating lately and when I have it’s mainly been re-posts of my eurout articles or YouTube clips. It’s been a while since I shared my personal thoughts on this blog, and the reason for this is that most of my thoughts (and feelings and seconds of the day) have been preoccupied with one single thing.

The same thing that’s kept me from doing other stuff I used to spend too much time on, and instead I am just sitting around with a stupid grin on my face. Grinning and smiling, followed by more grinning and smiling. Oh and some happy sighing as well.

Yep, the reason for my lazy blogging is that I’ve been too busy falling in love.

What do you say, that’s not a good enough reason? Seriously? When was the last time you were in love? It totally changes your priorities. At least when it comes to how you spend your time.

More importantly, I didn’t just fall in love, but I fell in love with the most amazing girl. Ever. Words can’t explain just how amazing she is and how good she makes me feel. Everything is better since I met her...

I could go on and on, but you get my drift. I’m in love, I am happy and unless I want to turn this blog into a Look-at-me-I’m-so-in-love-it’s-sickening kind of site, we might have to accept that my blogging will be a little irregular for a while longer.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

Touch a tit, save a tit (LOL) - Breast cancer awareness month made fun

The Booby scare

YouTube Thursday: Favourite Dead TV and movie lesbians

Over the years so many TV and movie lesbians have been killed off I thought I would share with you some of my favourites. Dead lesbians ofcourse, not how they were killed off, because that would be kind of morbid. Not that I'm against mobidity per se.

Sylvia on Los Hombres de Paco
WARNING: Not for the faint of's all rather upsetting, not to mention extremely bloody

The most horrible, gruesome, bloody and stretched dead scene ever...

Dana on the L word

The most famous dead TV lesbian

Paulie on Lost and Delirious

I really liked her character until she jumped off the school building...

Ayten in Auf der andere Seite (the Edge of heaven)

Great character...and I also thought she was really hot *g

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Stonewall: lesbians pose and award nominees are announced

Stonewall - the UK organisation for LGBT rights and visibility - rocks. We already told you about their awesome campaigns like Some people are gay - get over it and Love your inner lesbian, but there doesn’t seem to be a limit to their awesomeness.

For starters, they have managed to persuade well-known British lesbians to support them in their Some people are gay – get over itanti-bullying campaign, by having them pose in the very cool t-shirts with the same slogan.

These ladies include parliament’s only out lesbian MP Angela Eagle, authors Sarah Waters and Stella Duffy, TV presenter Amy Lamé and comedian Rhona Cameron.

Another reason to love Stonewall is that they have just announced their short list nominees for their Stonewall awards. On November 5 awards will be handed out to those that have made a positive contribution to lesbian and gay equality in Britain in the past year.

Author Sarah Waters

There’s nominees in several categories, namely publication of the year (including G3 magazine), politician of the year (including Lynne Featherstone MP, and Baroness Turner of Camden), writer of the year (including Sarah Waters and Geraldine Bedell), entertainer of the year (including Beth Ditto and Mary Portas), sports award of the year (including Alison Fisher), journalist of the year and broadcast of the year. For a complete list of nominees go here.

What do you think of these initiatives and the nominees?

This post was first published on eurOut.

Monday, September 21, 2009

Studying lesbians: an introduction

A new monthly column that discusses current and not so current research about lesbians and bisexual women

When I am not being an editor for eurOut I actually spend my time in academia, which includes conducting scientific research. This is not just a day job, but it is also a passion. I have always been interested in research, and for a while now I was looking for an excuse to explore some more the vast amount of research that has been conducted about lesbians and bisexual women.

Then I thought some of you might also be interested in learning more about what science (read: mostly social science) has to say about queer women. Hence, a new column was born. Every month I will be focusing on a different study or area of research that has tried to figure out just how we lesbian and bisexual women work. This time I’m just giving you an overview of what kind of things you can expect.

On eurOut we have already paid some attention to some of the scientific research that has been conducted on LGBT issues, including a Dutch study into acceptance of homosexuality in sports, happiness of kids in Rainbow families in Germany and in Denmark, and the psychological and physical health of Dutch lesbians.

Yes, some people do write their theses on the L word

Some of the topics I want to cover in upcoming columns, include research on sexual identity and especially how it relates to everyday social activities and interaction. There’s also some interesting studies on the influence of the media on lesbians and bisexual women. For example, our lovely vlogger Saskia wrote her Master thesis on the influence of the L word on the identity of Dutch lesbians (Look out for a discussion of that study next time).

A totally different area of interest is research into physical and psychological health of queer women. For example, prevalence of somatic and psychological disorders, as well as how we are treated and approached by health practitioners. One of the women whose research revolves around these topics is Dr. Julie Fish, who is also involved in the lesBian breast cancer studies we told you about recently. I’ll be telling you all about her other research soon.

Related to this topic are two very different fields, one is that of biology and neuroscience, where they have done research into possible homosexual genes, dominant sides of the brain, testosterone levels, left handedness, finger length and lots more studies like that that you’ve probably already heard of. I will look into them and tell you what they actually do know for sure and how much has just been exaggerated in the media.

Is there such a thing as lesBian mice?

Another field that’s filled with studies (and theories) about homosexuality is that of psychology. For many years now researchers and therapists have tried to figure out not just what and if something makes you gay, but also what it means to be a lesbian, your quality of life and how we (gays and straights) all could get along a little better. There’s much more to it than that, but I will elaborate more when I get to my psychology issue of my column.
And finally, yes, there will be graphs ;-)

Are these the kind of research topics you would be interested or are there any other areas of research involving lesBian women that you would like to learn more about? Leave your suggestions in the comments and check back next month for the second edition of studying lesbians.

This post was first published on eurout.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Do you love your inner lesbian? – New Stonewall campaign launched

Stonewall – the organisation that you know from such awesome campaigns as “Some people are gay –get over it”, is back with another poster campaign, but this time it’s aimed specifically at lesbians and bisexual women.

The posters with the slogan “Love your inner lesbian” are urging lesbians and bisexual women to take better care of their health. The campaign is funded by the UK’s Department of Health and is especially aimed at surgeries and health care centres.

The Love your inner lesbian campaign is the result of a study Stonewall conducted last year when they questioned 6,000 lesbians and bisexual women about their physical health and experiences with health care practitioners. Apparently, results were shocking.

They found a high percentage of queer women suffer from substance abuse, harm themselves or get excluded from routine testing for things like cervic cancer. In addition it was found that many queer women had difficulty coming out to their doctors, or when they did, they received little understanding or were treated negatively because of it.

One way of improving this situation is to increase lesbian visibility, which should make health practitioners more aware of the problems and needs of queer women and helps us to disclose to our doctors exactly what we want and need. Stonewall hopes these cute posters are the first step in that direction.

What do you think about this campaign? Do you think it will be effective? And just how open are you to your doctor about being queer?

This article was first published on eurOut.

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Portrait: Swedish soccer player Jessica Landström

As I have already mentioned on many occasions, I am not much of a sports fan. In fact, I hardly ever play or watch sports and I know pretty much nothing about the topic. However, I do have a great appreciation for women who play sports, especially when it comes to tennis and soccer. So I thought the Women's Euro 2009 was the perfect excuse to tell you all about my favourite soccer player Jessica Landström.

Jessica Landström is a 24-year-old professional Swedish soccer player who is not only very hot, but also an out queer woman. Let’s get her soccer credentials out of the way first and then we can focus on the important stuff.

Landström plays in the Swedish national league for Linköpig FC as well as for the national team. She was also present during the Women’s Euro. She started off on the bench (she has just recovered from a shoulder injury), but at later matches we actually got to see her play. Well, at least some of the time, as I think she played two halves of the final two games for Sweden.

Photo by Robin Nordlund/Bildbyrån

Previously she played for Sweden’s national team in an Olympic qualifying match against Denmark in 2007 and four additional games during the 2008 Olympics. In addition, the Forward was voted best breakthrough player at the Swedish football awards last year.

When she is not playing soccer, the Swedish hottie is busy studying Mechanical Engineering at the Royal Institute of Technology in Stockholm. Beauty and brains, what more could you possibly desire in a dream woman? Well, she also happens to be 1.80 m tall. Interesting.

Photo by Paola Svensson

Even though it’s very likely that there are quite a number of lesbian and bisexual soccer players, unfortunately only very few are out, including Landström. Landström came out publicly back in November of last year. In an interview with Swedish magazine QX, Landström said that she has always been out to friends and family, just not to the entire world.

Even though her partner Sara was sometimes mentioned in newspaper articles about her, she never openly talked about the nature of their relationship in the press before. Because her partner had been so supportive of her and her career, Landström decided it was about time she acknowledged her properly. The couple has been together for about two years now.

Photo from

Unfortunately, Jessica Landström doesn’t have her own personal website (yet), but you can find out more about her through her soccer club Linköpig FC. Or you can just continue reading eurOut, as I am sure I will let you know in case anything exciting (no matter how trivial) happens in her life.

This article was first published on eurOut.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

New female prison drama Odsúdené to show first lesbian relationship on Slovakian television

Slovakia has just started airing its new drama Odsúdené (Convicted) about a woman’s prison. Yes, it’s like the Slovakian Bad Girls.

The series revolves around Eva Kolarova (played by Zuzana Maurery) who gets send to jail for drunk driving – she crashed into another vehicle, whose passenger died and she almost killed her own son Filipom.

Her husband no longer wants anything to do with her and she only has her parents who stand by her. Now she must adjust to prison life, which is totally different than what she was used to, with its own set of rules.

In the women’s prison it is all about surviving, not losing face, about fear and deceit and more of that kind of stuff. It’s also the kind of place where Sapphic affairs tend to arise. At least, that’s what usually happens on TV shows set in prison and Odsúdené seems no exception.

Judging by the promo of tomorrow’s episode, it looks like the start of a lesBian relationship. Even if it is not, this still means one of the few – if not the first – lesbian kisses on Slovakian television.

Is this the kind of show you would be interested in watching?

New episodes of Odsúdené air in Slovakia on Tuesdays and Thursdays, and also in the Czech Republic on Mondays and Wednesdays. You can find out more on the series' website.

Unfortunately no subtitled episodes or summaries are available yet, but if these lesbian storylines continue I am sure it will just be a matter of time. We will keep you up to date.

This article was first published on eurOut.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Some of my favourite eighties songs

Once again I thought I’d share with you some of the eighties songs that I really like. Some I have enjoyed ever since I was a little Natazzz, others are more recent loves.

The Human League – Love action

Cutting Crew – (I just) Died in your arms tonight

The Cure –Love Song

Duran Duran –Wild boys

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

British documentary Out At Lunch shows the lives of a group of lesbians at Cambridge

Whoever says that there’s not enough lesBian content, let alone European content, obviously doesn’t spend a lot of time on the internet. Because if you did, you would know there is tons of queer stuff out there.

Even more than lesBian content, there are eager artists and film makers waiting to show their projects to the world. The one thing that is usually lacking is not so much the willingness or the great ideas, but the lack of money to make it happen.


This is also the case with British documentary Out At Lunch, which follows a group of gay girls during their last days at Cambridge University. They have decided to have one final big lunch together to which they have invited all of their parents. Such an awesome idea, but also a very nerve wrecking and confrontational experience.

In Out At Lunch you can see the group of friends prepare for their family lunch event, all the while discussing topics such as being gay, coming out, friendship, parent-child relationships and the value of being true to yourself.

The documentary is currently in post-production and Life Slice Films, created by director Alisa Arnah and producer Emma Brogen, is still looking for donations to have enough money to finish the project and to make it available for the world to see. Luckily, they have already created a trailer, which shows you exactly what you can expect from this film.

Now doesn’t that look like the kind of documentary you would love to watch? I know that I do. I love seeing real lesbians experiencing and talking about every day things, or at least the kind of things that are recognisable to most of us. I can’t wait to watch the whole documentary, which should be ready for viewing by early next year.

This post was first published on eurOut.

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Movie review: Aimee & Jaguar

Most of you have probably already seen Aimee & Jaguar– the German movie by Max Färberböck from 1999, about the lives of two women during World War II. For those of you who haven’t or perhaps haven’t even heard of this movie (how is that possible?), let me tell you a little bit what it is about.

The movie tells the story of Felice Schragenheim (played by Maria Schrader), a Jewish journalist working for a Nazi newspaper as well as an underground organization using a false name, and Lilly Wust (played by Juliane Köhler), a mother of four and married to a Nazi officer. Even though the two women are very different and live in different worlds, the women fall in love with each other and embark on a passionate love affair.

Obviously war time is not the ideal time for a romance, and the couple has to face many obstacles, including Lilly’s husband returning home from the front, and trying not getting killed by the Gestapo.

The movie starts with Felice checking out Lilly in the theatre. She even approaches her, but Felice’s friend tells her she doesn’t stand a chance. There’s no way Lilly would ever leave her husband.

Felice decides to woo Lilly by sending her passionate love letters, addressing Lilly as Aimee and signing them as Jaguar. Through the friend of Felice who works for Lilly, the two women get into contact.

It’s clear from the start there’s a great attraction between the two ladies, but whereas Felice is very clear on what she wants, the same can’t be said for Lilly. But luckily she comes around pretty quickly. And it’s hot. These two are very hot together.

However, what Felice and Lilly share goes much deeper than really great chemistry. But making a relationship work is hard enough, even when you don’t have to deal with all the things they don’t have going for them.

The fact that this movie is based on a real story (it was adapted from the book by Erica Fischer that details the actual lives of Lilly and Felice, including many of the letters the women wrote to each other) makes it even more intriguing and captivating.

Over the years I have seen many movies about World War II. Obviously these kind of movies are never a light watch, but it was really interesting and refreshing to see a war movie that focused on a love story between two women.

If you haven’t seen Aimee & Jaguar yet, be sure to check it out. Opinions differ widely about it, but I think it’s a really good movie.

This review was first published on eurOut.

Friday, August 28, 2009

This is your life little Natazzz

Inspired by a post from Lori entitled This is your life mini-Lori in which she writes a letter to herself as a little kid, I felt compelled to do the same.

Of course, I already know that my letter is going to look so different, especially because I really do not want to talk about work and careers all that much, but instead talk about who I am and about life in general. I hope it will at least be half as interesting.

If there is one thing I would want to say to little Natazzz – the little Natazzz from kindergarten, who was too shy and afraid to play with the other kids and who would rather pee her pants than use a strange toilet-it would be “it’s going to be alright”.

Change that, I would say “You might not believe me, but it’s going to be great. One day you are going to look at yourself and your life and say “Look at me now”.

It will be a long road though. Some parts of your life are going to be particularly difficult. This will have little to do with external factors, as all your life you will be blessed with relatively good fortune and great people around you. However, you will make life quite hard for yourself for a while.

Why? Who knows. It will take you a while to figure out how life works and especially how you work. Long after you finally know who you are, what you want and what makes you happy, and years after you have accepted you for you, you will learn that it is ok to be you.

Perhaps now that I am telling you these things, you can figure the latter part out a little quicker. I know, things take time, and you will be the kind of person that will always take some time to do things. You will find yourself lagging behind when you compare yourself to your friends and others your age, especially when it comes to all the social stuff.

Don’t worry about it so much, we all do things at our own pace. It will be a while before you realize that sometimes it is good to wait and you really don’t need to do things just because everyone else is doing them.

Trust me, not having kissed any boys is really not something you want to agonize over too much. Neither is wanting to kiss girls. Yes, I know, I am jumping ahead. Before you get to that point you will have spent years worrying about your body.

I wish I could say something to make your teenage years and early twenties a little easier, but good things will come from it too. Once you have figured it all out and have accepted you for you, you will be so much happier and content than all your peers who are still clueless about themselves.

But back to you little Natazz, as you sit there in kindergarten, too afraid to speak up, play with others or go to the toilet. The world really isn’t such a scary place. Trust me. Yes, there are a lot of things out there you cannot control and some people are mean, but you will be alright.

Maybe you can just try a little harder to interact with others a little sooner and you will see that they will all like you. And those that don’t really do not matter. Never don’t do something you really want to, because you think the other kids will think it’s stupid or weird.

I know you are not going to believe me, but there is going to be a time when you are going to embrace your weirdness and uniqueness, and you are going to know other great people who all have their own unusual and weird things that make them special.

Furthermore, one day you will no longer be shy and scared of the world. In fact, you will change into someone who’s very outgoing and talkative and no one will believe you when you tell them you used to be a shy introvert.

You will find your place in the world. It won’t be at all what you imagine growing up, but it will be the exact right place for you. And you will be happy.

Good luck little Natazzz. You are going to be just fine.

Thursday, August 27, 2009

YouTube Thursday: Best songs of 1993 and 1994

When I was younger I used to go to all the music festivals every summer. I think I started going at exactly the right time, because when I was in my late teens all the cool music came out.

1993 and 1994 were the years when guitar music became really popular. After the grunge years, now it was time for a kind of music that would appeal to a larger audience. After that a few more years with some great great songs followed, but when you look at the songs that came out in 93/94 and what bands were headlining the festivals, you have to agree those were pretty great years. Well, if it’s your kind of music of course.

Here are some examples of the songs/bands I am talking about:

Smashing Pumpkins – Today (1994)

I used to be a big Smashing Pumpkins fan. Not so much anymore, but I can still appreciate their music.

The Breeders – Cannonball (1993)

This song was a huge hit in the indie charts and at the festivals in 1993/1994. Still a great song so many years later.

The Cranberries – Zombie (1994)

The Cranberries have had other hit songs that I love more (Linger, Dreams), but Zombie was the big hit.

Radiohead – Creep (1993)

Is it too early to call this song a classic? I think I’ll probably always love this song.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Goddag mit navn er Lesbisk: Documentary about lesbian life in Denmark

Goddag mit navn er Lesbisk (Hello, my name is lesbian) is an awesome Danish documentary about lesbian life in Denmark through the years. I say awesome, because documentaries that depict lesbian life in all its facets are still pretty rare. In fact, this documentary is the first film about lesbian life and culture in Denmark.

According to the official website, the documentary “shows modern lesbian lifestyle and culture in all its diversity as it is lived in one of the most sexually liberated countries in the world. Set against historic footage from the last five decades, women aging from 19 to 84, share their views on sex, family gatherings, parental roles, night life and careers: every facet of the lives we lead, viewed through the eyes of women who have chosen identities departing from the norm.”

Just reading the synopsis makes me very excited and I can’t wait to see this film. As much as I enjoy a nice fictional plot, with lots of drama, crime or even a nice romance, there is something about watching just every day women like yourself living their lives that’s just very...well, nice.

In this documentary we can see lesbians from all walks of life, from the fifties until present time, telling us stories about their lives, about challenging gender roles, falling in love, and raising a family. It shows you what it was like to be queer in former times, to be political, engage in same sex ballroom dancing, live in a small conservative town and much more.

The documentary was made by filmmakers Iben Haahr Andersen and Minna Grooss, who’d been working on it since 2006. The official release in Denmark will be in October, but the film has already had its first screening during the World Outgames a few weeks ago.

So far no official international release dates are available yet. However, the makers of the documentary are planning a screening tour through Europe. They are especially working on getting their documentary shown in many Eastern European countries, hoping it will improve people’s opinions about the LGBT community.

This article was first published on eurOut.

Monday, August 24, 2009

Tell 3 initiative: Coming out isn’t enough

When you first start to realize you are gay or bisexual, it can be a very exciting, confusing and scary time. You might think that the end of this process is when you come out and you live happily ever after with your girlfriend. But that’s just not true.

No don’t worry, chances are you and your girlfriend will indeed live happily ever after, or at least enjoy a few awesome years together. What I mean is, that coming out is not the end, but only the beginning.

Telling the people around us that we are into women is not enough. For people to really understand and accept us for who we are, we have to be visible and vocal about exactly who it is we are and what are lives are really like.

There now is this awesome initiative called Tell 3 that is promoting just that. The aim of the website is for everyone from the LGBT community, or even anyone who has loved ones who are LGBT, to pledge to tell 3 people in their lives what exactly it is like to be LGBT or to know someone who is. Because nothing makes people more accepting of others who are different than them than to have personal experiences and relationships with these people.

On their website, the wonderful people from the Tell 3 initiative, not only explain in more detail why this initiative is so important, but they also give great advice on how to tell others about yourself and also who to tell.

They even provide you with some materials you can use in your conversation with others, like helpful conversation starters as well as links to organisations. But my favourite link on their website is entitled “What’s your excuse?” where they address all the excuses we always use why we shouldn’t take part in a great initiative like this.

Things like, “But I’m already out”, “I’m not political”, “I don’t know enough about LGBT rights”, or “Having conversations like that is weird/cheesy/awkward/silly." Sounds familiar?

Even I as the entertainment editor of a lesBian website (which is pretty gay, right?) am not always as vocal about being a lesbian to everyone as I could be. Perhaps it is time to change that. Perhaps we should all try to change that. I am more than willing to take the Tell 3 pledge and talk about my life as a lesbian to three people in my environment who I normally do not talk to about this sort of stuff. Who is with me?

Tell us whether or not you are planning to take on this challenge. If so, we would love to hear about your experiences in the comments and also make sure to tell the lovely folks over at Tell 3 about it, so they can use your stories to make their initiative grow bigger and bigger.

This article was first published on eurOut.

Friday, August 21, 2009

Getting what you want

Most of us spend a lot of time thinking, wishing and longing for getting all the things that we want. Some of us even go a step further and actually try to achieve all those things we long to have.

Depending on the things that you want, your specific dreams and/or goals, this might be a very long journey and you will probably spend most of the time trying to achieve or chase your dreams. Getting what you want becomes the end goal, instead of it just being a new beginning.

Sometimes what you want might be much easier to obtain than you thought. Perhaps you have small wishes or maybe you were just lucky. Whatever the case might be, you probably haven’t really thought much about what you are going to do once you get everything you want.

What if you get everything that you want…then what?

When you have everything you want, do you just lie around being all happy and content? Or do you make new dreams and goals and things that you want to have? Perhaps it really isn’t all that much about getting what you want, but just about wanting things.

Although I have to say that getting what you want can be really really nice. Sometimes I cannot believe my luck. I try to just enjoy and cherish everything that life gives me, but it is so easy to either find fault with what you have or to question it in other ways.

To good to be true is a saying that comes to mind sometimes, just when life is really really good. As if I don’t deserve awesome things to happen to me. WTF. Of course I deserve it. I guess it can just be a little overwhelming.

Sometimes you should just stop thinking, worrying and making your life harder and just look around and think: Yeah, my life is really really good :)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

New German lesbian crime web series: Emma Stahl

When we gave you an overview of lesBian web series a few weeks ago, we said it was just a matter of time before more great European queer web series would see the light of day. The latest European web series to launch a website, after British web series Far Out, comes from no other country than Germany.

The web series in question is entitled Emma Stahl by producer Sandra Uredat. The show is about a bad ass female special agent, who loves adventure and beautiful women. Or as the official press release summarizes:

“Emma Stahl is a special agent for the fictional European police unit EuForce. This elite team fights organized crime in Europe. When normal police action does not go anywhere, Emma Stahl is called. Her bosses tolerate her unorthodox methods grudgingly as long as they lead to success.

Emma Stahl is addicted to adventure and beautiful women. A sometimes fatal weakness.”

Now doesn’t that get you excited? I am a huge fan of crime shows, films, books, you name it, as long as it has strong, interesting, hot leading women. Therefore, I cannot wait for this web series to start airing.

When exactly this will be depends on the funding they receive, as this web series, like many others, will be produced independently, with a crowd-funded budget. Once the series is completed, it will be shown on the Emma Stahl website, as well as during special preview parties that they are planning to hold in different cities where people have sponsored the project the most.

The web series will be in German with English subtitles, but after the series is released everyone is welcome to add their own subtitles in the language they want. Besides being able to watch Emma Stahl on their website, it will also be made available for download.

Producer Sandra Uredat has worked in TV and radio for the past 15 years. Her reason for making this web series is because she believes that, “there are not enough lesbian heroes in the movies.” I couldn’t agree more.

You can find out more about Emma Stahl on their website (so far it’s only in German, but they will add an English section soon), including more information on how you can donate to get this awesome project completed even sooner.

This article was first posted on eurOut.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Books that will always stay with me:

1. Het grote boek van Madelief – Guus Kuijer
2. Stay - Nicola Griffith

3. Pages for you – Sylvia Brownrigg

4. 1984 – George Orwell

5. Pride and Prejudice - Jane Austin
6. American Gods – Neil Gaiman
7. Puppets -Daniel Hecht

8. Silk - Caitlin R. Kiernan
9. Alix & Valerie - Ingrid Diaz
10. American Psycho – Brett E. Ellis

11. The Salt Point – Paul Russell

12. Lost Souls – Poppy Z. Brite

13. Lives of the Mayfair Witches – Anne Rice
14. The Wasp factory – Iain Bank
15. One flew over the cuckoo ’s nest – Ken Kesey