Monday, June 30, 2008

Song of the day: Pink-Janie's got a gun

I really like Pink. Suprised? Hmmm. Well, I like a lot worse than Pink actually...

This also happens to be one of my favourite Aerosmith songs.

Real life and the internet

For the last few days, I have been far too busy to blog. Don’t ask me exactly what has kept me so occupied, because I honestly could not tell you. All I know is that I hardly spent any time behind a computer last week.

Or maybe it just feels that way, especially compared to the crazy amount of time a day I usually can be found with a laptop on my lap. By the way, I think the laptop is possibly one of the best inventions ever. That, and the internet, of course.

Do you remember what your life used to be like before the internet? I certainly don’t. Actually I do, but I find it hard to imagine…or weird even…a world without e-mail or Google or Youtube.

It is almost as weird as a world without cell phones. Remember those good old days, when you could only talk to someone on the phone if they were actually at home?

You would meet up with someone and just wait patiently until they arrived. No phoning you are going to be 5 minutes late, no questions about why you did not answer your phone, and no texting.

Perhaps the world would not be all that bad without cell phones. Yep, they can take them away. As long as they let me keep my internet.

My roommate does not get my online obsession or my addiction to my laptop. Sure, she checks her e-mail and surfs the internet, but even if she tries, she can never spend more than an hour online.

She gets bored easily and keeps telling me she prefers real life. I always tell her it does not have to be a choice, you can have both. But I get where she is coming from. It was because of her that I came up with laptop free Saturday.

And I have to say, it is kind of nice to just let the computer be. Go outside, leave the house and not even think about the internet….for a few days. Or for most of those days.

Don’t worry, I could never do it for too long though. A few days max, and I am back e-mailing, blogging, surfing and chatting. We all have our hobbies, the internet is mine.

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Song of the day: Queen-You don't fool me

This video has a similar theme as the Skunk Anansie one, only in reverse. Boy finds out his gf is making out with another girl...

Friday, June 27, 2008

Song of the day: Skunk Anansie-Secretly

I used to be a big fan of Skunk Anansie when I was in my twenties (I used to be a lot of things in my twenties I am just me).

I chose this song because the video includes two cute boys kissing. Or actually it is more about a girl finding out her boyfriend is really more interested in his best buddy...

"You wanna do someone you should be by yourself....instead of here with me....secretly..."

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Song of the day: REM-Low

REM has been one of my favourite bands for as long as I can remember, and probably always will be.

I love their sound, all of their songs, and well, I would listen to Michael Stipe sing just about anything (ok the one exception being Shiny Happy People, which is one of my least favourite songs. Ever.)

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

Song of the day: the Smashing Pumpkins-

the Smashing Pumpkins are still a band I heart. A lot. I had the hardest time choosing just one song of theirs...

"I used to be a little boy, so old in my shoes...What I choose is my voice...Whats a boy supposed to do? The killer in me is the killer in you...Send this smile over to you..."

Because you’re hot: Women with guns

I am not a gun person. At all. I do not think women with real guns are hot. However, women with fantasy guns…or better put, women with guns on my TV are very hot.

Enough said. See for yourself.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Song of the day: Bush-Swallowed

Another one of my favourite bands...or, more precisely, former-favourite bands. Oh how I miss my early twenties...

"Just wanted to be myself...hey you said that you would love to try some, hey you said you would love to die some..In the middle of a worm on a fish're the wave you're the wave you're the wave..."

Pepper plant

I am the proud owner of a pepper plant. I have to say, I am the kind of person who normally does not care at all about things like plants, or flowers or anything else that needs water and caring.

So what happened? I am not sure. I was plant shopping with my mother yesterday, getting more bored and annoyed by the minute, when all of a sudden I saw this bunch of pepper plants.

For some reason I had never seen pepper plants before, and because I absolutely love peppers, I got all excited about them. Especially, because some of them had purple peppers growing on them, and I had never in my life seen purple peppers before.

Of course, my mother was so happy I finally showed some interest in plants that she convinced me to buy one. And I did. It’s standing on my balcony, and so far, it has not died yet.

However, it needs a lot of loving care, as in water almost daily and all kinds of other plant stuff. Normally I cannot even remember to give my roommates plants water once a week. Oh well. I will keep you updated.

Monday, June 23, 2008

Song of the day: the Smiths-Panic

I used to go to this bar where on nights where we did not like the songs they were playing we always requested this song, only because of the chorus saying "hang the DJ". We even thought that was the title of the song.

Why do we hate Mondays?

Another Monday morning, the beginning of the working week for most people. Unless you’re lucky. Is this really true? Are you lucky if you do not have to work? If so, does that mean that Mondays are great when you’re off work?

Yes, I know, that’s a lot of questions to start the Monday morning. It’s just that I have been wondering why it is that we hate Mondays. I mean, is there something particularly horrible about the day or is it only because we have to go to work?

I know it sucks having to go to work again after 48 hours of being free, but does that really warrant all the hate for Mondays? Most of us do not have such horrible jobs, so having to actually do them is not really that bad. So maybe we just like to complain?

There sure are many songs about how awful Mondays are. Blue Monday, Tell me why I don’t like Mondays, Manic Monday….and these are just the ones that popped into my head.

If there are songs about it, it must be a big deal. Right?

Hmmm. I personally think we just hate Mondays because we think we should, and not because they are really all that horrible.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Song of the day: Bonnie Tyler-Total eclipse of the heart

Music Memory Moment: Total eclipse of the heart

When I was 16, a high school friend of mine and I used to go to this pub in the centre of town (to this day, the drinking age in the Netherlands remains only 16 for beer and wine-18 for harder stuff).

This was the pub to go to, which does not say much as we only had about five pubs in total, but still. We would go there on a Friday or Saturday night, all dressed up and ready to meet boys.

Or at least my friend would be. Dressed up that is. I was probably wearing something like my fave jeans and a t-shirt. I had not fully realized yet that boys were so not what I was looking for.

Most nights we would just sit at a table and drink our beers. We would sit there all alone and wonder why no boys were joining us. Looking back on it now, it wasn’t all that surprising.

When you are 16, everything matters, and thus not hooking up with any cute boys was like the worst thing in the world. We were convinced we were the only girls in school who had not kissed a boy yet, and we were really worried we would be alone forever.

Yep, we were such drama queens. I remember on one of these nights Total eclipse of the heart by Bonnie Tyler was playing and we both thought it was the most depressing song ever.

I don’t think we ever really listened to the lyrics, or had a clue what the song was about. We just decided this was a depressing song that fit perfectly with our horrible lives. We just said there in silence listening to that song, drinking our beers and getting even more depressed.

Life is hard when you are 16, or at least it feels that way.

We both ended up kissing boys that summer, which after years of anticipation was quite a disappointment. At least it was for me. I did not get what the big deal was, and I remained clueless until I finally kissed a girl a few years later.

My friend actually met her husband at that same pub about a year later. For him it was love at first sight, for her…well, I have always thought she settled, marrying the first guy who ever showed any real interest.

The pub no longer exists. I walked by the other day and I think there is now some kind of restaurant in its place. It’s a shame, because I would have loved to have taken a look. Oh well, at least the memories remain.

Friday, June 20, 2008

Song of the day: Bros-When will I be famous?

Back in 1989 when I was 12, BROS was my world. Oh how I loved these boys. Don't ask me why.

Books that shouldn’t have been made into movies: Queen of the damned

This week seems to have quite the movie theme. I did not plan it that way, it just sort of happened (sounds pretty much like my life. Hmmm).

When I was younger (read: in my twenties) I was a huge Anne Rice fan. I read every single book she ever wrote. Yes, that means I even read her erotica (Yay! Check it out if you’re feeling naughty), and all the twenty or so vampire novels she produced (Don’t! Just read the first five vampire chronicles featuring Lestat, then stop).

I really loved those first five vampire novels, and I read them over and over again. When there’s books you really enjoy, you always wonder what it would be like when they are made into movies. Would it be awesome or would it completely suck?

Turns out it can really go either way. I thought Interview with the vampire was brilliant. Besides a few minor things, it told the story of the book perfectly. In fact, I would even go as far as to say that the movie was more exciting than that first vampire novel ever was.

It is a real shame the same thing cannot be said about the movie adaptation of the third Anne Rice vampire chronicle Queen of the damned (or technically, it is about books two and three). Queen of the damned is possibly one of the worst movies I have ever seen.
Ok maybe not the worst, but it is still pretty damn bad. The only worst book adaptation I can think of is the Ruins, even though to be honest that movie blows even if it was not based on a movie.

The only thing I liked about Queen of the damned is the way they shot the big concert scene at the beginning of the movie, which was awesome.

What I did not like? Gawd, I don’t even know where to start. Everything just looked so dumb and fake, it made me feel embarrassed to admit I was a fan of the books. In addition, Aaliyah was totally unconvincing as the “Queen of all vampires”. No offence, seeing she is dead and all, but the woman simply cannot act.

The thing I hated most about Queen of the damned though, is the total disregard of the original story. They changed crucial parts of the story, left out many important facts and details, and basically turned it into something totally different.

It could have been such a great movie….

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Song of the day: Ugly kid joe-Cats in the cradle

This song always makes me cry. It also makes me wonder if it's too late yet....Too late, for a lot of things.

Awesome eighties movie posters

I felt inspired by Final Girl’s Awesome movie posters Friday (ok, so that really means a total rip-off). Since I have always had a weak spot for eighties movies, I thought I’d have a look what kind of awesome eighties movie posters there were out there…
…ok as you can see, the awesomeness mainly refers to the movies I heart from the eighties, not so much the movie posters themselves.

Some are kinda creepy this one:

That's so not what this movie was all about.

The only truly awesome eighties movie poster I could find was this one:

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Song of the day: Nada Surf-Popular

This is for all of you who were popular in high school, or wished you were...

River Phoenix

When I was a teenager, long before I realized I was really into girls, I had a huge crush on River Phoenix. I thought he was the most beautiful boy I had ever seen. Looking back on it now, I guess he was an incredibly beautiful boy.

Not only that, but he was also a very talented actor. Who knows what he could have accomplished if he had not died way too soon.

I must have seen all of his movies, and even though not all of those were all that great, his performance always was. Maybe I am biased, because I had such a crush on him. But c’mon, he played a little scientist when he was only 10 years-old in Explorers (alongside an equally young Ethan Hawke).

I guess most people know River from his roles in Sneakers or My own private Idaho (playing gay alongside Keanu Reeves). I always remember him like he was in Running on Empty, because that film came out when I was still crushing on him. If I recall correctly, he also had a really cute girlfriend in that movie.
I also sat through crap movies like Dogfight (in which a bunch of army guys on a break hold a competition to see who can bring the ugliest date), I love you to death (it is really weird and involves an Italian restaurant), and Little Nikita (all I recall is something about Russian spies).

What made me think of River Phoenix is the movie Stand by Me that was on television the other day. Now that is a fun movie. It is about this group of 12-year old boys who go on a little road trip to look for the body of some kid who was on the news.
Over the course of the movie, they find out some more about themselves and each other, and they bond as only adolescent boys can do. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed watching this movie. I guess, this is one of those movies that does stand the test of time, probably because it is already set in the fifties.

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Song of the day: Melissa Etheridge-Like the way I do

Can you believe this song is twenty years old? I sure can't. Well, maybe I can when I see the eigthies hair in the video. Still an awesome song.

Weight gain

Some people are naturally skinny. They can eat and eat and eat, never exercise, and still they never gain any weight (I hate you bitches, LOL). I am not one of those people. Far from it.

I have never been a sportive type of person, and I also never was all that skinny. Still, weight was not really a problem for me until I got into my twenties. All of a sudden, every burger I ate and every beer I drank seem to make me gain weight.

Of course, I did not really fully realize how much weight I had gained, until one day a few years ago, I stepped onto a scale and I found out I weighted 200 pounds. I was so shocked, because I honestly did not know I was that fat.

I decided to go on a diet right away, and I was very successful. I totally changed the way I lived my life and what I ate (I stopped eating take out, chips, pizza etc. although I could never give up alcohol). Over the next 18 months, I lost about 50 ponds.

I felt so great and proud of my achievement. There is nothing like being 50 ponds lighter, and having everyone compliment you how great you look, to realize how heavy you were before.

There is great pleasure to be found in going shopping and having all the clothes not only fit you, but also look good on you. I felt more attractive than I had in years, I was happier, had more energy, and basically life was great.

I managed to keep the weight off for a few years. However, then I decided to quit smoking. I was such a chain-smoking addict, and quitting was one of the hardest things I have ever done (read more about it here).

I was successful at quitting, but not without a little weight gain. Unfortunately, a little weight gain turned into a little more weight gain. I never had a very fast metabolism, but not smoking has made it even slower.

Don’t worry, I am not back to my original 200 ponds, but I have gained enough weight back to not be able to fit into all of my clothes anymore (like my great suit). My friends have also stopped complimenting me on my looks. The latter is very telling.

I have decided it is time to start trying to lose some of the weight again. This time I am not just going to diet, I want to try to exercise more. Not an easy task, because I am such an unbelievably unsportive person, but I am going to try.

Hopefully I will have some good news updates to share with you guys soon.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Scream 3

Last night I watched Scream 3 on television. I remember when the Scream series first came out about a decade ago. I was really excited about them, in fact, I even saw all three movies at the movie theatre.

When I was younger I used to watch a lot of horror movies, but somehow they always seemed a little dated and lame. That is what I loved about the Scream series, they modernised the scary movie, and made it scary again.

Or at least, that is what I used to think. But when I watched Scream 3 last night, I could not help but think it all seemed a little lame. Granted, Scream 3 was not the best film of the trilogy, but still it made much more of an impression on me 8 years ago, than it did now.
Perhaps it is because my judgement is no longer clouded by my obsession for Neve Campbell (who still is very cute, though), or maybe it is just because since those Scream movies came out, so many other and better scary movies and TV series have been made.

Whatever the case may be, it was still enjoyable to watch. It was also a pleasant surprise to see how many “famous” actors are in this movie. For example, I never realized that one of the cops investigating the murders is no other than McDreamy.

Oh that Patrick Dempsey, he gets around. I was just over the shock he actually played the lead in eighties movie Can’t buy me love. And now this. I wonder if it bothers him, that no one knew who he was, until he started playing in a TV drama.

Anyways, Scream 3 is a fun watch if it happens to be on television, but I would not stay home for it.

Song of the day: Jay Brannan-I want to be a housewife

I think this is the cutest song. Ever.

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Song of the day: Tracy Chapman-Fast car

I heart Tracy Chapman. I think I probably own all of her CD's. She's amazing. Fast car is an oldie, but a goodie.

Father’s day

Today it’s Father’s day in most places around the world (or at least it is in Europe). A day to celebrate our dads, buy them silly presents they don’t need, visit them, and basically show them we love them.

At least, that is what it means to most people. There are also plenty of people, like me, who won’t be taking part in the event.

Instead, I sit here at home and try to think of the last time I spoke to my dad. I try to remember, but I just cannot recall exactly when it was. What I do remember, is what we talked about.

I told him, well, I told him many things. What I did not say to him, was that me telling him this stuff meant I had had enough. I was done.

Not a decision that I had taken lightly. We are talking years of carrying the burden of having to take care of someone, who should be taking care of himself.

My dad is the sweetest, kindest man I have ever met. A good and decent man, who just never learned how to live independently as an adult.

I hope things will change. I would like nothing more than to write about Father’s day next year describing the silly presents I gave him when I went to visit.

I miss you dad.

Saturday, June 14, 2008

You should read it: The Blue Place by Nicola Griffith

I just finished The Blue Place by Nicola Griffith last night. The Blue Place is the first in a series of detective type thrillers about Aud Torvingen, a sexy and dangerous private investigator.

Aud is a former police lieutenant, who quit because she did not like the rules and enjoyed the violent and dangerous side of the work a little too much. Yep, she’s hot and a little dangerous (“6 feet tall with eyes the colour of cement”).

Oh and I forgot to mention, she is also a dyke. What more could you ask for?

In The Blue Place, Aud is hired by Julia Lyons-Bennet to investigate the murder of a friend of hers. Of course, it turns out that this murder has a lot to do with drugs, forgery, money and other criminal activities.

Lots of dangerous stuff happens, and Aud ends up having to protect Julia from the bad guys. Julia does not seem to mind in the least.

Yep, in the midst of all the scary stuff that is going on, the two of them discover they quite like each other, and they fall madly in love. It might sound cheesy, but it really is not. I found it quite convincing, and also really enticing.
I have read a lot of lesbian pulp, including detective mysteries, and this is definitely not one of those books. The book is really well written, fast paced, which I can always appreciate, suspenseful, and convincing.

I always love me a good detective novel, however, as tough and exciting the female lead characters often are, they are usually straight. Having the sexy PI actually get the girl instead of the guy, makes for a nice change.

If you like this sort of story, you are going to like The Blue Place. Go check it out!

Song of the day: Hole/Duran Duran-Hungry like a wolf

Both versions of this song take me back down memory lane. I used to be quite the Hole fan, so I still think their version of Hungry like a wolf is pretty awesome.

And well, Duran Duran are a great example of what made the eighties so cool...

Friday, June 13, 2008

Song of the day: the Murmurs-Carry me home

the Murmurs had some really cool and fun songs, including this one. Also, Leisha Hailey was already a cutey 14 years ago...

Because you’re hot: Michelle Rodriguez

If I ever met Michelle Rodriguez in real-life, I would probably run in the other direction. That girl is nothing but trouble, and that is putting it mildly.

Regardless of her personality, her attitude, or her actions, I do think she is really really hot.

I already loved her in Girlfight, in which she plays a boxer, but I loved her even more on Lost. I think she also played in some thriller or horror movie, but I cannot think of the title just now, and it is a bit of a blur.

I think she is a pretty good actor. Even if she was not, I can always appreciate a hot tough girl.

What more is there to say about Michelle Rodriguez? Hmmm. Just this: Come out already honey, you ain’t fooling anybody.

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Song of the day: PJ Harvey-My beautiful Leah

Gay friendly police recruitment

I was in Amsterdam yesterday and the entire city was covered in posters recruiting new police officers. The posters featured photos of different people and the message that they could use some help.

The posters showed an Arab guy, a prostitute or a gay man, with the following slogans:

S/he needs your help…

Arab guy: …because he is being discriminated against
Prostitute: …because sometimes clients go too far
Gay man: …so he can walk hand in hand with his boyfriend

When I saw the last poster, I could not help but smile.

Amsterdam has always been a very gay friendly place, but the last few years it has seen an increase in so-called gay bashing. That, of course, is very sad and disappointing, and I was starting to get a little worried that maybe we were losing some of our tolerance.

To see that even the police are trying to promote that gay men should be able to walk hand in hand with their boyfriends, gives me hope that we as a nation haven’t lost all of our tolerance yet.

Of course, there are also many negative ways to look at this campaign, but I have decided to see it as a positive thing.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Song of the day: Dresden Dolls/Radiohead-Karma Police

This is a tough choice, between cover and original. I heart Radiohead and, hence, love the original, but I also heart the Dresden Dolls, and I love women covering songs originally sung by men.

the Dresden Dolls:


Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Song of the day: Orgy/New Order-Blue Monday

I have always loved this song, but found the original version a little boring. Orgy did a great noisy remake of Blue Monday:

Of course, the original by New Order is a classic.

Tell me, which do you prefer?

The Beach

Over the weekend, I went to the beach. It was a nice spring day, not too hot, and not too cold. The sun was shining, the wind was blowing. We went for a long walk along the shore. It was simply wonderful.

I could paint you a picture about what it was like, but I think I will just share some photos with you instead.

Monday, June 9, 2008

Song of the day: Tori Amos/Nirvana-Smells like teen spirit

I thought this would be a good week for selecting some of my favourite covers, as well as their originals. First up is Tori Amos' version of Nirvana's Smells like teen spirit. I think it is awesome.

I do love the original as well. I remember when this song first came out, it was the raddest thing ever. I even bought this song on vinyl. Yep, I was totally into grunge.

Movies I have seen too many times: Coyote Ugly

There are some movies I can watch over and over again and never get tired of them. One of those movies is Coyote Ugly.

Coyote Ugly is a romantic comedy/drama from 2000 about a young aspiring songwriter named Violet, who leaves her father’s home in a small town to move to New York City to pursue her dreams.

Of course, she is not the first or only girl who has come to the big city to become a star, and thus, she is not very successful in getting her foot in the door. Instead, she gets a job at a bar called Coyote Ugly.

After starting her job, she quickly discovers that in order to keep her job she must learn the ropes of singing, dancing, and performing wild acts on the bar. As Violet is rather shy, this does not come naturally to her, and she almost loses her job once or twice.

However, dancing on the bar half-naked at some club, even though very enjoyable for us viewers, is not the reason why she moved to New York City. She tries to give her song writing another chance, she ends up having a great performance at an open mike night, which leads to a successful record deal and they all live happily ever after.

Don’t ask me why I love this movie so much. Of course, there are the obvious things like girls dancing on the bar half-naked, and a very cute Piper Perabo. But it is about more than that. It is a nice movie, with a good story, and great main characters.

Or maybe it is just a really fun feel good movie with hot chicks.

Sunday, June 8, 2008

Song of the day: Elastica-Waking up

This will be my final Brit pop song (for now, anyway). Another one of my favourite bands of the nineties...I never realized until now how cute the leadsinger is...

Blog crush: Post No Bills

I have a list of blogs I read every single day, or at least every time I am behind a computer (which is almost every single day-apart from laptop-free Saturday. Yes, I actually call it that. I’m such a geek).

Even though I visit many blogs, there are only a few I truly enjoy reading every single time, regardless of the topic being covered. One of those blogs is Post No Bills.

I cannot really explain to you what it is exactly that makes me love that blog so much. I mean, it is all about the personal life of this girl from NYC I have never even met. She tells us about what she gets up to, about her thoughts and ideas, and well, mainly about her love life.

Her blog used to be very drama-tastic, as I like to call it, but these days she is in a relationship, which generally makes for less drama, but it still has the same amount of hilarity.

I guess what I heart most about her blogposts, is the way in which she makes fun of all the stupid and humiliating stuff that happens to her. It is all very funny, mainly because it is all so recognisable.

I sometimes blog about personal stuff, but I never go into that much detail. I admire how she can so freely share the most intimate parts of her life with the entire world. That, and I like the way she writes.

OK I think I’ve said enough nice things already. Go check out her blog!

Saturday, June 7, 2008

Song of the day: Oasis-Live forever

This was one of my favourite songs back when it first came out...

Lesbian visibility

In the last decade, a lot has changed when it comes to lesbian visibility. Ever since Ellen Degeneres came out of the closet and told the world she was gay, many other gay and bisexual women have followed her example.

Well, many might an overstatement, as the number of out gay women in Hollywood can still be summed up easily. However, in the last few years we have seen a huge improvement in not only the number of women who have come out, but also in the public’s acceptance of out celebrities.

Who knows maybe one day we will even get to the point where sexual orientation really does not matter anymore.

Until such time, visibility matters. It is very important to see gay women in Hollywood who have full and successful lives and who are proud of who they are. This not only helps other lesbian and bisexual women, especially those who are young or are struggling with coming out themselves, but it is also good for the general public to see more lesbians on TV.

The more exposure, especially in a positive way, the more people will realize lesbians are just like everyone else. It is this kind of normalcy of gay and bisexual women that helps the most with acceptance.

For example, look at Ellen Degeneres. She is one of the most popular American daytime TV show hosts around. Her TV show has won so many awards, including daytime Emmys for five years in a row. Millions of people watch Ellen every day and they love her.
Not only do millions of people love her, most of them are also familiar with the fact that Ellen is a lesbian. They know this, but because they see what a great person and entertainer she is, it does not matter. Not really.

That is exactly what makes someone like Ellen Degeneres so influential. She is a great example of a woman who is very open about and comfortable with who she is, but at the same time shows that she is so much more than just a lesbian.

Yet, another great thing about Ellen is that she also uses her power and influence to make a difference. Especially in the last year, she has addressed many gay issues on her show, including the Lary King murder. Again, it is important to raise awareness and to inform the general public about things they otherwise might not be aware of.

Besides the really famous lesbians like Ellen Degeneres, Melissa Etheridge, and Rosie O’Donnell, there is a whole new generation of not so famous, but very out and proud lesbian actors and comics emerging onto the scene.

These ladies were lucky that others before them paved the way for them, and therefore, being who you are becomes less and less of a big deal. Due to great lesbian websites like After Ellen, everyone around the world is able to see all the up and coming lesbian stars of tomorrow.
They might not be household names, but they have a huge influence on young lesbians and bisexual women everywhere, who are looking for some kind of role model.

This is all very positive and promising, but we still have a long way to go. There are still many closeted people in Hollywood, and there also is a lot of intolerance in the world. But I remain optimistic, that some day this will all have changed.

Friday, June 6, 2008

Song of the day: Lush-Ladykillers

Still stuck in the nineties...these gals were cool. If I recall correctly, they even had a song called Mulder and Scully.

My earliest memory

My earliest memory is of me running home from kindergarten. I must have been about four years old and I remember it was around Christmas time.

We had had a little Christmas celebration dinner at kindergarten, which probably involved many things but all I recall is yellow colored pudding and ladyfingers. That, and a big round chocolaty wreathlet we all received and got to take home with us.

My mother had just picked me up from kindergarten and we were walking home together. The apartment we lived in at the time was only a few minutes away from the building where my kindergarten was.

I do not remember what day of the week it was, but it was the night that the Pinocchio cartoon came on television. I loved Pinocchio, in fact, I think it was my favorite TV program at the time. My mother had just told me that we were running late, and that meant that we might not be in time for Pinocchio.

I did not want to miss my favorite show, and therefore I decided to start running ahead of my mother. As a little four year old this made perfect sense to me, because running after all, was faster than walking.

However, what I had not thought about was the fact that my mother was not running along with me, and seeing as she had the door key, I was not really saving any time. Of course, this was way too much logic for a little four year old.

So there I was running home along the pavement, clutching my big round chocolaty wreathlet. I was running and running, trying to go as fast as possible and not really paying much attention to where I was going or what I was doing.

I remember being almost at the end of the street when I tripped and fell. I tripped and fell and I dropped my big round chocolaty wreathlet, which broke into a million pieces.

I do not remember whether I hurt myself falling, or whether or not we got home in time to watch Pinocchio. All I remember is how upset I was that my wonderful wreathlet was ruined.

I tried to pick all the little pieces of the pavement, but my mother told me not to. She said the pavement was dirty and I could not eat the chocolate anymore. I was upset, because those little bits of chocolate still looked very edible to me.

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Song of the day: Blur-This is a low

I used to be such a Blur fan...of course everyone knows them because of their Song 2 song, but I actually prefer their earlier stuff...

"And the radio sings...this is a low...but it won't hurt you..."

You should read it: American Gods by Neil Gaiman

One of the best books I read over the past few years has to be American Gods by Neil Gaiman. You might know Neil Gaiman from one of his other books Stardust that has recently been made into a movie.

I am not going to write an entire review of it, but I will just tell you a little bit about the story and why I think the book is awesome.

American Gods tells the story of this average kinda guy who gets out of prison and meets this other guy who claims to be a God. He is not the only one making that claim. In fact, it turns out there are lots of Gods living among us normal human beings.

They were once powerful and loved, but because these days everyone has forgotten about them, they are forced to live a rather mundane and human existence.

If this sounds a little weird, it is because that is just what the story is, a little weird. But that is what I love about this book. Not just that it is weird, but also because everything else is perfectly normal.

You are reading about everyday life in an average American town, and among the many people living there are a few folks who just happen to be Gods. This is a similar concept that Gaiman uses in one of his other books Anansi Boys, in which a guy finds out he has a half brother who has unusual powers, that no one seems to find the least bit weird, apart from the main character.

Anyways, if you are looking for some new titles to add to your reading pile, I’d definitely recommend Neil Gaiman’s American Gods. Or any of his books for that matter.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Song of the day: Pulp-Common people

The first of a few songs of the awesome Brit pop of the early/mid was cool, it was fun, it had guitars...


The bus drivers have been on strike here for over 2 weeks now. Two weeks with no busses driving anywhere, or worst yet, some busses only driving somewhere some of the time.

Why? Well, they are on strike because they want more money. Who does not want more money? I sure would love some more money, but you do not see me annoying half the country to achieve this.

The reason I am so annoyed by it, is mainly because of my own stupidity. I am a little ashamed to admit I do not always follow the news that closely, hence, it has happened twice now that I was waiting for a bus that just never arrived.

I had to be told by nice passers-by that there was still a bus strike going on. I guess that is a little stupid of me, but yay for the friendly folks letting me know about it.

The low point was yesterday, when instead of taking the bus I had to ride my bicycle to a job interview. You do not want to ride a bike while wearing a nice suit and it is raining. You really don’t. I better get that job.

Anyways, I am fed up with all this striking nonsense.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

Song of the day: Jill Sobule-I kissed a girl

That other, much better, "I kissed a girl" song...

Movie Madness: Donnie Darko rocks

Jen over at Daily Mish Mash is hosting a Movie Madness Blogging Carnival today. Since I love to blog about (mainly bad) movies I have seen, as well as take part in fun stuff, I decided I could not not participate (Did I ever mention I heart double negatives?).

Seeing as I have done quite a few blogs lately about movies that sucked (i.e., American Psycho and the Ruins), let me tell you about a movie I think rocks: Donnie Darko.

For those of you who do not know the movie (how is that possible??), Donnie Darko is a drama/science fiction movie from 2001. It is set in a small town in Virginia, in the late eighties (which makes for a killer soundtrack, with tons of better eighties songs). The story is all about Donnie Darko, a nice but weird (or slightly disturbed) boy who sleepwalks constantly and has an imaginary friend named Frank.

If you actually haven’t seen the movie yet, and you do not like spoilers, stop reading now. If you do not care about either spoilers or this movie, do keep reading.

The movie starts with a jet engine falling from a commercial aircraft into Donnie’s bedroom. Luckily, he avoids being killed by it because obeyed the voice in his head telling him to sleepwalk outside of his room. The voice is of Frank, his imaginary friend who dresses in a rabbit costume. Frank tells him that the world will end in 28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes and 12 seconds.

Think this movie is weird already? You are right, but that does not make it any less fun to watch.

Besides telling him to sleep walk, Frank also instructs Donnie to flood the high school, and burn down the house of the motivational speaker at school, who turns out to be a pedophile. Luckily it is not all bad crimes and psychotic voices. Donnie gets himself a girlfriend named Gretchen.

He does not have much time to be happy and enjoy being in love, because one night she is run over and killed by a car. And guess who is driving the car that kills his girlfriend? No other than "imaginary friend" Frank, who is dressed in a rabbit costume for Halloween.

It is a good thing Donnie has learned all about time travel. He takes Gretchen’s body and drives to a hillside where a time portal is opening in the sky. Donnie's mother and sister experience turbulence on their return flight home; one of the airplane's jet engines detaches and falls. The engine travels through the time portal to 28 days earlier, crashes into Donnie's bedroom just as at the beginning of the movie.

This time though, Donnie chooses to stay in bed. The story ends on the morning after the jet engine accident. Donnie is dead. Gretchen is alive and rides by Donnie's house on her bicycle. Never having met Donnie, she talks with a neighbourhood child about the sad accident. That sure is one way of showing you love your girlfriend.

Monday, June 2, 2008

After Ellen’s Hot 100

After Ellen has posted the results to their annual Hot 100 list, a list of the hottest women on the planet according to lesbians. And what a list it is…

When they started doing this list a year ago, it was just a bit of fun that got a little out of control. Since then the After Ellen website has grown in popularity enormously, resulting in over 100,000 people voting for this year’s Hot 100.

And the winner is: Tina Fey.
Now, I personally did not vote for her, nor do I think she is all that hot. But she is a pretty cool lady, and I can live with her topping the list. However, I much more agreed on last year’s winner Leisha Hailey, who again this year made it onto my personal top 10.

This is what the top 10 looks like:
1. Tina Fey
2. Jennifer Beals
3. Jill Bennett
4. Bridget McManus
5. Leisha Hailey
6. Ellen Page
7. Sarah Shahi
8. Sara Ramirez
9. Kate Moennig
10. Lena Headey.

I voted for three of these women, I wonder if you can guess who they were (apart from Leisha of course, since I already told you I voted for her).

Looking at the entire list, you cannot help but notice that if you want to be listed as one of the Hot 100, it helps if you are either (1) part of the L word cast or (2) an After Ellen vlogger.

I guess we just like women who are either openly gay or who play gay. And really, I don’t think there is anything wrong with that.

Before I post some more pictures of some of my favourite women one the list, I just have to say I am slightly confused by some of the "winners": 6. Ellen Page, 25. Gabrielle Christian, 43. Blake Lively, 52. Emma Watson, 67. Tegan & Sara. Maybe I am just getting old. At least, I hope it was the younger AE readers who cast those votes.
Even though the list was not that surprising for me, I did not always expect some women to rank that high. For example, 17. Ellen Degeneres. I love Ellen, but is she really the 17th hottest woman alive? Then again, I am even more puzzled by 56. Jackie Warner. She is so annoying and not all that attractive. Perhaps being openly gay is the most important factor here?

Some of the entries, I also think are really cool. Like 8. Sara Ramirez, even before she "played gay", 46. Angie Harmon, because it is such an unusual choice, oh and 74. Karman Kregloe, because she is the highest-ranking AE Vlogger who isn’t even a celebrity. I think the photo below tells you exactly why:

I could go on and on about this list, but maybe I should just shut up and have you make up your own mind about the Hot 100.

Here are some more pics of some of my favourite Hot 100 chicks:

24. Christina Cox

33. Katee Sackhoff

68. Carly Pope

81. Michelle Rodriguez

83. Clea Duvall

Song of the day: Muse-Sunburn

Another festival classic...if you went to music festivals the same time I did, I guess.

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Song of the day: Portishead-Roads

"How can it feel, this wrong...from this moment, how can it feel, this wrong..."

My sister

"I hate my sister, she’s such a bitch…." Remember that song? If not, go check it out. It’s this fun song by the Juliana Hatfield Three about the ups and downs of having a sister. I can relate. Do not get me wrong, I love my sister. She is awesome.

But I did not always feel that way. We got on great when we were little, but things soon changed once we hit puberty. For a long long time we really could not stand each other. Not only that, but it was almost like we were complete strangers, with nothing in common but the fact that we had to share a house and family together.

I think we found each other again once puberty and high school was out of the way for both of us. All of a sudden we realized we did have lots in common, not only that but we actually enjoyed each other’s company.

More than a decade later, I would call my sister one of my closest friends. I love hanging out with her. Even though we are very different, we like to do the same stuff, enjoy similar things, and have the same sense of humour.

It was not until I moved to a different country that I realized how much she meant to me. Being far away from everything that is important to you makes it that much easier to see those things and people that really matter.

Like I said, my sister is awesome.